F*ck it

Okay I'm 24 years old, engaged, and have a child on the way.

I'm also of Arab decent, and raltivly politically active.

I don't know how bad things have to get before i say "F*ck it"

After the September 11th attacks many (if not most) people of middle eastern decent were frightened.  We were scared of the government, we were scared of other americans, we were scared of how little attention the media acknowledged our plight.  

I was scared.  So much so i went by an American name for a month.

Since then I have gotten used to the state of things.  Wierd looks at the gas station, worry about being pulled over by a cop, Right wing asswipes calling for my death, have become the norm.

With the coming brith of my child I fear for it's safety and that of my future wife.   The fact that I even have to worry says a lot about the state this country is in.

So it comes down to it.  At what point to i say "F*ck this" and leave?  

My friends tell me not to that things will get better.  They tell me there will come a time when the public finally stands up and stops this fascist takeover.  

Thise same friends however tell me when asked their vote doesn't count, letters don't do a thing.  When pushed they say we already live in a fascist regime.  So I ask them what are they planning on doing.  The answer is invariably "nothing"

Can I wait 3, 8, more years for things to maybe get better?

More importantly what are my "redlines"?  Just how bad do things have to get before i give up hope of ever getting my country back?

Thanks for letting me rant.

first diary, but been a Kos member forever